Adrift
[CLICK]
[STILL WATER PARTS UNDER OARBLADES OF A ROWING BOAT AND THE ARCHIVIST’S EXERTION IS CLEARLY AUDIBLE]
ARCHIVIST
[Weary] Come on. How much further can it be?
[EXTENDED SOUNDS OF TIRED ROWING]
The one time I’m on my own, and it’s a domain where –
Really? [chuckles] Now?
Fine.
[OARS ARE RETRACTED AS THE STATEMENT STATIC RISES]
[SOUNDS CHANGE AS IF NOW DEEP UNDERWATER, BUBBLING AND DARK, WITH THE SUGGESTION OF A BODY SWIMMING]
ARCHIVIST (STATEMENT)
Down in the depths, there is a cold beyond cold. An icy, liquid chill that surrounds you, embraces you, pierces every inch of your naked gooseflesh skin with its needling touch, and gets inside your bones, the marrow frozen into nothing but agony. The shivers that wrack your body are so intense that when you stretch your arms or kick your legs to swim, their movements are wild, uncontrolled, pushing you through the water in shuddering bursts.
Water? Yes, you remember. The darkness around you, the forever of it all. Sometimes you forget just what it is that keeps you gripped so tight, suspended in place above nothing. But the thought comes to you quick enough when your lungs begin to burn. When did you last breathe? How much longer can you hold out? You consider for a moment opening yourself, simply letting it in, drowning. What are you so afraid of? But you know there is no release in it. You have been drowning as long as you can remember, and to invite the impossible cold into yourself, through your lungs and into your core, will bring no end to it, no relief. So you hold on. You hold out as long as you can, ignoring the agony, straining against the pressing darkness that has consumed you, and that implores you to consume it in return.
There is air above you. You know that. Far, far above is the surface, the inky stillness of that silent barrier between water and sky, motionless as black glass, an obsidian expanse that stretches away. You could break that stillness, shatter its peace as you emerge, clawing, spluttering into the air. But the idea repels you. Your heart seizes at the thought, and your blood shoots through with a cold that has nothing to do with the water. Why does your mind recoil and beg you to stay down, to hold fast in the darkness, to simply keep drowning?
Just swim, that’s the key. Pick a direction, and swim until you find something. Someone. Land perhaps, or just another who is suffering as you are. Were you doing that already? Which way have you been going? The shivers that pass convulsively through your body make it so hard to tell for sure, and no light will condescend to reach down here. But still you press on, try to keep moving through the pain, through the fear that attempts to paralyse you, to lock you in place as surely as the water that presses all around. How long have you been moving now? Seconds? Years? Your lungs still burn and beg you to succumb.
Something moves. Something deep and old, and larger than your frostbitten imagination can conceive. You cannot see it, you cannot hear it, but you feel it. The water shifts and pushes against you, spinning you around, and tearing apart your thin idea of up and down. It is coming closer, its smooth motion relentless as an iron bell tolling in the silence. It is close.
Closer.
It is here.
You can feel its titanic bulk moving past, just below you. Or perhaps above. It almost brushes against you and, despite the pressure of the water all around you, you cannot fight the frantic instinct to run. Your legs begin to move, flailing, and where your feet press against it you feel its skin, rough and leathery, strangely almost dry despite the ocean through which it moves, and sharp enough that you feel it tear through the soft flesh on the soles of your feet. There is no pain, simply a wave of sickened nausea that passes up through your legs and into your stomach. You keep moving, limbs splaying in that strange pseudo-run, moving along it, and begging for this thing to end. Sometimes your feet do not land upon its skin, but press on something else. Something smooth and hard that feels like bone. Or tooth.
And then it is gone, passed away from you, and out into the expanse of dark and quiet cold. You cannot stay down here. The darkness hides terrible things, and your whole chest screams for air. You take a moment and focus, concentrate on the feeling of the water around you, the gentle pull that promises to be down, and then you begin to swim, a desperate crawl up through the black towards the vague hope of a surface.
You do not know how long you have been swimming, how far you have climbed, but when you thrust your hand forward you feel something change. It is a sudden release, a weightless freedom that seems so alien to you now. A new panic begins to overtake you, but it is too late, as your whole body rips through the unbroken surface of the sea and into open air.
[RIPPLING SOUNDS AS IF A WATERY BARRIER IS BREACHED]
You feel dark water explode from your throat in something that is half-screaming, half-disgorging foul and icy liquid, and you take a breath. The air burns, perhaps a new feeling, or perhaps one long forgotten, and you open your eyes.
[SOUNDS OF COUGHING AND GASPING FOR AIR, ALONG WITH TREADING WATER & SPLASHES]
There is… nothing.
You look around you, neck twisting violently, trying to take it all in, but the ocean that stretches away is smooth against the reddened sky, unchanging. There is nothing else. No boat to save you, no land to make your escape, not even another lost soul who shares your torments. Deep down, in the icy depths, you could imagine… you could hope. The darkness hides terrible things, but it could also hide salvation. You cannot know what is down there, but up here it is laid out in such terrible stark detail that there is nothing. You only know you are crying because the water on your face is warm enough that it feels like fire upon your cheek.
[FAINT SOBBING JOINS THE OTHER WATERY SOUNDS]
And beyond that, up in the sky you feel it. Looking down on you in something approaching delight, drinking in your despair and bitter dread. Enjoying your misery and terror as you cast about for something that might be hope. It disgusts you, the waves of smug satisfaction that pervade your being as it stares at you. You cannot bear for it to see you like this. It makes you want to scream, but you know your screams are exactly what it wants.
[SPLASH TO DIVE BELOW THE SURFACE]
You choke it down, and slip once again below the surface. Into the concealing darkness of the freezing waters below, and you leave behind the nothing that waits above.
[STATIC RISES AND FADES AS THE ARCHIVIST EXHALES]
[OARS ARE DEPLOYED ONCE AGAIN, AND THE ARCHIVIST RESUMES HIS JOURNEY]
ARCHIVIST
Well, not quite nothing. Not for me.
[CLICK]
[CLICK]
[ROWING CONTINUES]
ARCHIVIST
[Softly] There you are.
BASIRA
[Faintly] John?
ARCHIVIST
[Calling] Need a ride?
BASIRA
I, uh… Sure.
[THE ARCHIVIST AND BASIRA WENT TO SEA IN A RICKETY WOODEN BOAT… AKA BOAT PULLS UP TO A SHINGLE SHORE, FOOTSTEPS ON GRAVEL, PASSENGER BOARDS AND THEY SHOVE OFF]
BASIRA
How did you find me?
Oh, right. Obviously.
Thanks.
ARCHIVIST
Oh, uh, you’re welcome?
BASIRA
What?
ARCHIVIST
No-Nothing. I-I just… I was worried you might be upset if I interrupted your whole ‘solo reflection’ thing.
BASIRA
It’s fine. I mean, I would have at first but… honestly? There are a bunch more hells between me and London than I thought.
[THE ARCHIVIST KINDA CHUCKLES]
I’ve been hoping for a friendly face for a while now.
ARCHIVIST
Glad I could oblige.
[ROWING CONTINUES]
BASIRA
Not that I couldn’t make it on my own.
ARCHIVIST
Of course.
[MORE BOATING]
BASIRA
You’re not… You’re not here to just give me a lift are you?
ARCHIVIST
I need your help.
BASIRA
You need my help? I thought you were basically a god now?
ARCHIVIST
Annabelle Cane has Martin.
BASIRA
Shit.
ARCHIVIST
Yeah.
BASIRA
When? How?
ARCHIVIST
I think she’s taking him to Hill Top Road, and… I don’t know, I just – I needed someone I could trust, and I couldn’t ask Georgie or Melanie to come all this way, so –
BASIRA
They’re alive?
ARCHIVIST
Oh, uh, y-yes, I, um…
BASIRA
Oh, it’s, it’s fine, you can catch me up later. Let’s focus on the Martin situation.
ARCHIVIST
Right.
BASIRA
Can you, y’know, ‘see’ him?
ARCHIVIST
No. A-Annabelle has a – Sh-She can block The Eye. There’s a, a camera. It’s an artefact that was protecting Salesa’s – Right. So, um, shortly after we left you we found –
BASIRA
Magic camera that keeps them hidden. Got it.
ARCHIVIST
Yeah.
BASIRA
So they’re at Hill Top Road?
ARCHIVIST
Yes.
BASIRA
And you’re sure? Even if you can’t see them?
ARCHIVIST
Yes.
BASIRA
And you know the way?
ARCHIVIST
Yes.
BASIRA
So what are we waiting for? Stop messing around, let’s go.
ARCHIVIST
[Irritated] I’m not messing ar– Right. Of course.
[LONG MOMENTS PASS WITH THE ARCHIVIST’S AUDIBLE EXERTIONS]
BASIRA
It’s lucky for me you needed help. I just got out of this weird mirror-maze thing, and then I was just… on an island. I was seriously considering swimming.
ARCHIVIST
That would not have been a good idea.
[SUDDENLY THE BOAT IS JOSTLED FROM BENEATH, RIPPLING WATER AND SPLASHES UNTIL IT SETTLES]
BASIRA
I don’t remember there being a huge lake between London and Oxford.
ARCHIVIST
That’s because there wasn’t one.
BASIRA
Right.
I’m a bit over the whole horror-geography thing at this point.
ARCHIVIST
That makes two of us.
BASIRA
So I’m guessing it represents academic isolation or something? Maybe something to do with ‘the dangerous unknown’, skimming to the surface, that kind of thing?
ARCHIVIST
[Weary] Maybe it just represents the feeling of sore arms.
BASIRA
Been rowing a while, then?
ARCHIVIST
Hard to say. Certainly feels that way.
BASIRA
Yeah, you look like crap.
ARCHIVIST
Thanks.
BASIRA
You’re welcome.
ARCHIVIST
I’m trying to think of it as a metaphor.
BASIRA
And that helps?
ARCHIVIST
Not at all.
I’d be more than happy to let you take over, if you’d like?
BASIRA
No, I wouldn’t want to cramp your style.
ARCHIVIST
At this point, that’s just about the only part of me that isn’t cramping.
BASIRA
Alright, give ‘em here.
ARCHIVIST
Here you go.
[OARS ARE TRANSFERRED AND BASIRA BEGINS TO BOAT]
BASIRA
Okay. So… what do we know about Hill Top Road?
ARCHIVIST
Not much.
BASIRA
Another blind spot?
ARCHIVIST
No, it’s – I could look at it, but it… it was… it was like a… a hole. You know that feeling you get when you look down from a, a great height, like you’re being pulled into the abyss?
BASIRA
Kind of?
ARCHIVIST
[Getting lost in thought] Well it was… was like that. Normally I can see it, see the… webs, and feel the power of The Spider emanating from it, but… as I would look… it’s like my mind…. follows the paths of The Web,
[STATIC RISES]
the strands going down and… out… [Catching self] It’s quite disorientating.
[STATIC FADES]
BASIRA
So what? It’s like a… a Web-Vast team-up?
ARCHIVIST
Almost, but… no. It… It’s different. Something else. Either way the important thing is that right now, I can’t see it at all.
BASIRA
So we know they’re there with the magic camera.
ARCHIVIST
Exactly.
BASIRA
[Sighs] And we’re charging off into the unknown again? It’s just like old times.
ARCHIVIST
Old times wasn’t actually all that long ago.
BASIRA
Hmm. True. Feels it, though doesn’t it?
ARCHIVIST
Well, hopefully this one will go a bit better.
BASIRA
Would be hard for it to go worse.
ARCHIVIST
Yeah.
[ROW, ROW, ROW THEIR BOAT…]
So… how was the trip down? How are you doing?
BASIRA
Not great. But I think I’m doing better having done it.
ARCHIVIST
Yeah?
BASIRA
I always used to think I was helping people get what they deserved you know?
But then you see people suffering like this, with their deepest fears everywhere, and it’s people who I’d say were good people, or bad people or… And there are avatars, jailors and torturers, and some of them seem to hate it as much as the people they’re guarding. But they still do it…
I don’t know. I guess it’s… It’s hard to look back on what I did as all that different.
[Bitter laugh] Bit late for self-discovery though, right? After the world’s ended?
ARCHIVIST
We’re still here.
BASIRA
True. But I don’t really know what I even am anymore? Am I an avatar, or what?
ARCHIVIST
Technically… yes. I think you might have effectively inherited Daisy’s role. That’s very much The Hunt’s thing, isn’t it? You kill, and then you become?
BASIRA
[Mournfully] Yeah.
ARCHIVIST
Sorry. What I mean is, Daisy moved through the domains, tormenting you with the chase, but also spreading fear wherever she went, and watching the results with hungry eyes. I think that’s what you’re doing now: travelling through, seeing places, and feeding The Eye with your observations. And your revulsions.
BASIRA
[Exhales] So I’m what? Just a freelance watcher?
ARCHIVIST
If you like. You’ll probably end up with your own domain, eventually.
BASIRA
But if it’s The Hunt, what am I supposed to be chasing? All I’ve been doing is wandering around, hoping I might find something to do, some way to help –
Ah.
Damn it.
ARCHIVIST
And there it is.
[MORE ROWING]
BASIRA
So catch me up. What’s been happening? You found Melanie and Georgie?
ARCHIVIST
Uh, they found me.
BASIRA
So I was right, then?
ARCHIVIST
I don’t know what you mean.
BASIRA
Yeah, you do. Just after that meat factory, we were talking, and I said maybe you couldn’t see them because Georgie couldn’t feel fear and Melanie had cut herself off from The Eye. And then you said that –
ARCHIVIST
I said it was plausible.
BASIRA
Yeah, but you did the face when you said it.
ARCHIVIST
Fine. You were right.
BASIRA
So does this mean there are others?
ARCHIVIST
What do you mean?
BASIRA
Like, they can’t be the only ones like that, right? Maybe there are other people out there, naturally immune, wandering around or hunkered down?
ARCHIVIST
Uh, maybe. I mean, probably. But, y’know, well, I can’t see them, can I?
BASIRA
Ah, yeah. Suppose not.
[MORE ROWING]
ARCHIVIST
I also killed Helen.
BASIRA
Oh.
Right.
ARCHIVIST
Yeah.
[CONSIDERED ROWING]
BASIRA
Didn’t expect that.
ARCHIVIST
She was dangerous. And not like the others out there. It was only going to be a matter of time before –
BASIRA
No, no, I get it.
Honestly, it’s kind of a relief. How did Melanie take it?
ARCHIVIST
Melanie?
BASIRA
Yeah. She and… She and Helen were pretty tight back when, uh… Oh.
ARCHIVIST
What?
BASIRA
Back when you were in your coma.
ARCHIVIST
I see. Well, I haven’t told her yet. So, I suppose I have that to look forward to when we get back.
BASIRA
If we get back.
ARCHIVIST
That’s not the part I’m worried about.
BASIRA
He’ll be okay.
ARCHIVIST
Hmm.
BASIRA
I know a good way to take your mind off it.
ARCHIVIST
I wouldn’t want to cramp your style.
BASIRA
Ha!
ARCHIVIST
Besides… we’re almost there.
[CLICK]
[CLICK]
[FOOTSTEPS ON A DIRT TRACK]
BASIRA
So we’re just gonna leave the boat?
ARCHIVIST
Would it make you feel better to know that it’s not technically real?
BASIRA
No.
ARCHIVIST
Look, it’s fine. We probably won’t even be coming back this way.
BASIRA
If you say so.
So anyway, run this by me again, they’re like a proper cult, cult?
ARCHIVIST
Ish. They all seemed fairly normal given the circumstances. Bit of a let-down in some ways.
BASIRA
But like, they actually worship Melanie and Georgie?
ARCHIVIST
Worship is maybe a bit strong. They just… revere them.
BASIRA
[Laughs] Melanie must hate that.
ARCHIVIST
And that’s the issue. I’d say it’s as culty as it can be, when the ‘leaders’ are actively trying to stop it.
BASIRA
Must have been funny though –
[STATIC CRACKLE AS THEY PASS THROUGH AN UNSEEN DIVIDER]
[FOOTSTEPS ARE NOW ON PAVED GROUND AND BIRDS ARE TWEETING IN OXFORD]
Huh.
Hang on, is that – ? That’s the real sun isn’t it?
ARCHIVIST
Yes. We’ve entered the, uh… um…
BASIRA
John?
ARCHIVIST
Sorry, I should have said. The camera, it… it blocks my connection, and I, uh… It’s hard.
BASIRA
Are you okay?
ARCHIVIST
It doesn’t matter. Martin’s here, and we need to find him.
[FAINTLY, A TAPE PLAYS THE STATEMENT FROM MAG081 – A GUEST FOR MR SPIDER]
ARCHIVIST ON TAPE (BACKGROUND)
Behind the door stands a large, burly fly, this one dressed in baggy overalls. Next to it stands a much smaller fly –
BASIRA
Okay, how do we do that?
ARCHIVIST
I, uh… I, I, I don’t know. We’ll have to –
BASIRA
Shh! Do you hear that?
[THE STATEMENT GETS LOUDER AS THEY APPROACH]
ARCHIVIST ON TAPE (BACKGROUND)
– dressed in what appears to be a child’s version of those same overalls. They are both openly weeping. ‘IT’S MR. HORSE. AND HE’S BROUGHT YOU HIS SON’. The close-up on that fly’s face is an image that still comes to me when I’m having trouble sleeping. Then the text: –
BASIRA
There. In the… the spider web. Great.
ARCHIVIST
It’s not exactly breadcrumbs but, uh… but… uh…
BASIRA
You’re sure you’re okay to do this?
ARCHIVIST
[Resolute] I’ll be fine.
BASIRA
[Unconvinced] Hmm.
ARCHIVIST ON TAPE
‘MR. SPIDER WANTS MORE.’